Monthly Archives: June 2012

i’m so excited.

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Well, it seems as though sleep will evade me yet again! 

Numero Uno on the bucket list is about to get knocked off. 

Tomorrow I am boarding a flight for my first overseas mission trip! Months of prayers, prep, and work went into this. I have laughed, cried, and everything in between in the process. I have been scared. I have been nervous. Now, I am just plain EXCITED! I get jitters and chills just thinking about it. My life is about to change. 

I will try to update on FB, so y’all can see what’s going on. I ask that you pray for me and the team that I am a part of. God has designed this trip and placed the right people for the right reasons, and that makes me SO much more excited.

I know God’s about to do something great. He has been challenging me lately and convicting me in some areas of my life that I need to let Him have control over. He is refining me in this process and helping me learn to lean on him and trust Him more. 

I am so so very excited for this opportunity. God has been so faithful through this whole process. I just can’t wait to get to live out the plans He has made. 

Today was a great day. I usually write out a story and tell how God used it, but today I am in list-maker mode.We talked about being thankful today at church among other things, so I have compiled a short list of things I am thankful for today.

I Thank God for:

  • His love. That He loved me enough to send His son to die for me.
  • Joy. I have experienced so much joy from listening to Him and trusting in His word. 
  • His peace. It truly is amazing how He can calm this million miles a minute head and heart I have.
  • His Grace. It is so amazing and I don’t deserve it, but I am SO very thankful he gives it freely. 
  • My family. They are so supportive and encouraging of me and my dreams.
  • My church family. They are so loving and it feels great to know when they are all praying!:) 
  • My girls. He has given me some of the greatest, most special best friends. I love how I don’t even have to say a word and they know just what I am thinking. I am so blessed by each one of them.
  • Friends that challenge me and encourage me. People that keep me sharp and allow me to sharpen them as well. 
  • Getting to have quality time and conversation over nails and last minute Wal-mart runs with one of my MOST favorite people in the world.:)
  • God answering prayers and showing his sovereignty. 
  • God’s provision in my life.
  • His strength. 
  • Getting to see lots of the precious children I work with get baptized.It was such a special day!:)

I could go on and on…. God is so faithful, and I am so thankful. 

Well, I better get going. Tomorrow starts a brand new adventure!

 

“I thank my God in all my remembrance of you,  always in every prayer of mine for you all making my prayer with joy,   because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now.  And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.  It is right for me to feel this way about you all, because I hold you in my heart, for you are all partakers with me of grace,[both in my imprisonment and in the defense and confirmation of the gospel. For God is my witness, how I yearn for you all with the affection of Christ Jesus. And it is my prayer that your love may abound more and more, with knowledge and all discernment, so that you may approve what is excellent, and so be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God.”

phil 1:3-11

 

With Joy, 

Miss Kim

the wait.

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It’s official. I can’t sleep.

Could be the Diet Wild Cherry Pepsi. Could be the baseball game I just invested about 2 hours of my life in. Could be the fact that I am leaving the country in about 60 ish hours. ( I pick that one.)

Today I had a lot of fun at work again. We had an all together staff meeting which are always fun! I did some more overcoming fear with the swings with one of the girls. I had a great conversation with one of my 6th grade boys. ( I sure am gonna miss them when they go to the big 7th and 8th grade center!), I caught up with the boy who got the boots. ( He also told me he accepted Jesus this week at his VBS! Yay!:) ), I had more good conversations, and then when I met my last kid at for a park visit, he brought along his fishing pole.

I had kinda been in the mood to go home and get things accomplished, but I knew it would do some good and be relaxing to hang out by the pond for a while.

I know, you are probably like ” Seriously, Kim, you just talked about fishermen.” I promise, this is COMPLETELY different than last time.

So, with our pole in tow, we sat out to the big pond at Honor Heights park. I love fishing there. It is one of my favorite places that my dad and I would go. It was a lot less intimidating to me than the huge lake was . I remember doing some dad/daughter tournaments while my little brother tagged along getting chase by ducks. When he was two, one bit him, and me catching a fish didn’t get to be the spotlighted event that dad. Little brothers. Geez.

Anyways, let’s get back on the track I was headed down.

This boy I was with is one of the best storytellers I have the honor of working with. Before I get to the moral of the story, I gotta share his funny quotes.

While going by a baseball field:

” Miss Kim, I used to play baseball. When I was like 3. I had to quit when I was 6. It just gets tiring playing that long for the Chicago cubs. I needed time off to relax.”

“Miss Kim, you have the brains and I have the fishing skills. I mean I haven’t caught anything and you had to help me cast, but I am pretty sure I have the fishing skills.”

” That crane over there comes here every summer. And spring. And fall… well, most every time I am here.”

(He was looking in my car) “Whoa, your gas tank is on full, I didn’t know that it could go all the way to full.”

” Those fish like to tell me where they are, but when I get there, they are already gone.”

There are many more quotes I could use, but I will stop there.

We moved about 10 times around this pond. He would continue to cast, wait, and see what would happen. A few times we had to pull the line out and get moss and trash off the hook.He would throw it back in and try again. If nothing happened, he would remember a new place to try,and start all over. He got the line hung in the tree. He didn’t get mad or upset. He didn’t cry. He tried to get it out. He pulled to hard and lost his lure. He didn’t get upset.     A man saw him do this and gave him an extra lure he had. He was thankful. I watched him in this process for about 1 1/2 hours.

The thing that struck me the most was his positive attitude. He didn’t complain about the heat. He didn’t get tired. He didn’t yell. He was patient. He was full of joy just to be in the process. He had peace. He didn’t catch any fish today, and he was fine with that. He loved the process and was hopeful for the next time we could go.

Hmm.. when I am waiting on things…I wonder…do I look like the picture of this child, or maybe do I look like something else?

Many times, I grow impatient, insensitive. I get frustrated, bitter, and angry. I try to find ways to cut down the wait or short-circuit it. I find distractions so I won’t think about the things I wait patiently for.

God revealed to me a truth He has told me many times. The times of waiting and being patient are times that He is molding us into the people He desires for us to be.

The process of the wait teaches us more than the actual thing we are waiting on. If we are content during the wait, we will be content when the “thing” comes our way.

God reminded me that the thing, event, person, place etc I am waiting on him isn’t what will bring me the most peace and joy.

Being content in Him is what is most important.

The joy and peace is shown just as much in the process as the end result.

The comfort in all of this waiting is knowing that God is good and he works all things for His good.

As I try to rest, I am going to rest in that.

I think the Message interpretation of James 1:2-4 expresses this.

“Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.”

God is SO good!  Trust Him in the process.

With Joy,

Miss Kim

Aside
  • Usually when something gets brought up in discussion a few times during the week, I start to feel that tug on my heart. That tug that says, ” Maybe you should write about this.”

Right now there are a lot of things swirling around in my head that I should write about, trust, God’s timing, My John 14 notes that aren’t finished, lots of things….

I woke up before my alarm this morning, I knew that this topic was what I wanted to tackle.

This whole conversation actually dates a few years back. One of the guys at the BCM was recounting a story his now wife had told him when they were beginning there relationship. It was about the difference between fishermen and hunters.

Since then the concept has been shared a few times. I have added some details, as have people along the way. In recent history, I have told the story twice in the past two weeks, so I feel it’s ready to hit blog world.

What brought this whole conversation up? Girls asking what they should look for in a guy.

You see, there are two kinds of men in the world ( before you get mad, understand, yes I am stereotyping, and yes I do understand that men are unique and some just can’t be pigeonholed.)

There are fishermen. You see fishermen, when it comes to women, like to just cast their line out there and see what they can get. They make it all shiny with bait, worms, whatever, and through it into the lake and see what they can catch. Once a fish ( yes ladies, in this instance, you are the fish) takes the bait, they reel them in. Then they can decide whether you are good enough to keep, or throw back. Sometimes they get good fish that they love to show off and talk about, but sometimes they get little not worth it fish, or even worse, an old shoe someone threw in the lake.

Fisherman kind of cast this wide net to see what’s out there. Sometimes they are serious, but mostly they fish, just to well fish.

There is nothing wrong with the sport fishing. My brother, my dad, and many of the men I know are avid fishermen ( of actual fish.) I am just saying when it comes to dating, ladies, we deserve something better.

We deserve to be hunted ( err, pursued.)

The men who are hunters are pursuers.  I have learned a lot about hunting recently, ( well through Duck Dynasty, which by the way is a great great show). Hunters take finding their game very seriously. They construct decoys to get the game’s attention. They was their clothes in special stuff to disguise their scent. They have 27 different calls to help get the right duck. They sit out for hours in a blind or a stand, just waiting. They wait for that special thing to come along. They sit and watch and learn about it. They figure out the interests, they send the mating calls, and the decoys. They sit for hours, just waiting. Waiting for the right game to come along. They stay steady and strong. Right at the right moment, they shoot. Usually, their pursuit pays off. You don’t see many hunters throw deer,ducks, or turkeys back, right? You see them display their game with pride.

Do you see  the difference. When looking for someone to share your life with, you want to find someone more like the hunter. Someone who will take the time to get to know you as a person. Someone who will care about you, pursue you, and wait for just the right time to make his move.

Ladies, I have been victim, as I am sure most of you have, of being fish that just get thrown back. We need to wait for men that will pursue us, value us, and know our worth.

This hunting/fishing analogy was an analogy. It does not 100 percent determine ones success in dating and finding a spouse.

There is something that will though. Prayer. Ask God who that person is that you waiting for. Ask God to reveal to you the characteristics you should look for. Ask God to make you into the person he has for you to be. Let Him mold and shape you and allow you to pursue/be pursued at just the right time.

After all, we only can love others because He first loved us. He pursued us, fights for us, and loves us more than anyone on this Earth ever could.

I know a lot of you out there may be in the boat where you are just wondering what God is going to do. I am in that same boat. We just have to trust that his way and timing our perfect. He is our hope and our shield. Our confidence.

Ladies, if we want to find men worth our time and attention, we need to be pour out our desires before the cross, and ask the man who loved us first and loves us the MOST. (Same for you too men, just didn’t know how to make it eloquent.)

:”Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of you heart.” Psalm 37:4

“God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. This is how love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment: In this world we are like Jesus.  There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear,because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us.” 1 John 4:16-19

“Promise me, O women of Jerusalem, not to awaken love until the time is right.” Song of Solomon 8:4

With Joy,

Miss Kim

bait.

soar.

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My job is very interesting. In the summer, since I also intern at the church, and we don’t have school everyday. I see clients on Mondays and Fridays. 

Summer appointments are necessarily better than school based appointments, but they are very enjoyable.

I wanted to share a few highlights of the day. I saw 9 of the kiddos today( would have been 13, but I had a cancellation), so lots of interesting things happened. Today at my job I:

  • Helped a child overcome separation anxiety by going for a walk. Along the way there were many BIG dogs, which brought out another fear. She said, ” I am scared, but I trust you because you are my friend.” (That melted my heart a bit) We made it home safely and she is excited for the next adventure!
  • Ate Hot Cheetos and drove around in a pretend fire-truck rescuing people.
  • Jumped out of not 1, but 2 swings.( We were working on worrying and trust)
  • Walked a plank on a big toy at the park to prove it was sturdy( see above reasoning)
  • Played Crazy 8’s 5 times.
  • Gave my Hand Sanitizer away as a prize because I forgot my treasure box.
  • Read a story about a little puppy who wouldn’t go to sleep. By the end of it the KG girl shouted, ” Oh Crap! Just go to sleep puppy!” (it was hard not to laugh)
  • Had some foot races 
  • Used the bats and big balls to practice letting out frustration and anger.He had to express frustration with each hit and then let it go.  After the boy did it, he pitched to me and I got to say what was making  me angry. It does feel good!:)
  • Heard all about TV shows 12 year old boys find entertaining.
  • Listened to stories about the weekend.
  • Taught 2 kids the appropriate way to express thankfulness.
  • Ate ice cream.
  • Did multiplication drills.
It was a pretty fun day. I see a lot of clients in the parks around town because they are easy to get to. Both my Monday office clients cancelled, so I got to spend all day out side. Not a bad Monday at all.
 
There was one session that as it was happening,I thought, yep this is where God is going to teach me something.
My analytically calculating, worrying 5th grader( he has been referenced before)and I were playing at a park by his house. He tends to worry a lot about all of the “what ifs.” We were talking and I decided we should go try the swings. He didn’t really like that idea. He told me he thought there was some faulty manufacturing, that the swings may break, that the sun might get the metal too hot. All kids of reasons. All the reasons boiled down to a basic thing.
 
Lack of faith in the swing and lack of trust in the design.
 
I got in both swings, swung, and jumped out of them. He told me he would go next, but each time he was so scared. 
I tried reasoning, “What’s the worst thing that can happen?”
I tried modeling. I jumped out of two swings today.
I tired encouraging.
 
None of it worked. This child was content sitting on the ground.
 
I felt for him because I wanted him to trust that the swing would hold him. I wanted him to have as much fun as I was having. I wanted him to feel the freedom that comes from swinging in the air. 
 
He was too scared though.
 
He was also too scarred.
 
You see, he had fallen out of a swing before, and that experience still plagued him.
 
I have been swinging for a while. I am sure I have fallen out before, and I remember being 7 and wondering if the chains could always hold me up. I know the risks, but I still love to swing.
 
It brings me great joy and when I look back, I don’t remember the times I have fallen. I just remember the times I soared. 
 
As, I was driving home I thought about that boy. Even though I did swing today, God reminded me that I sometimes act like him.
 
  • I let past failures determine future success.
  • I let past hurts invade my relationships with people in the present who really do care about me.
  • I am sometimes content just to sit on the ground and watch others soar while I stay put, recounting all of the reasons it is scary to try in this big world.
God also reminded me that the greatest Joy in my life has came from following after Him. That taking those risks, jumping in, and Trusting Him is way more fun than playing it safe.
 
My boy did come around towards the end. Although he was scared to death, he swung in the swing.He wasn’t the most excited about it, but he will trust that swing a little more tomorrow I bet. 
 
I am not sure if my words will make sense to anyone out there today, but I just wanted to encourage you to trust in God and allow Him to help you soar.
 
It is way more fun than staying on the ground. 
 
 

 “But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

 

With Joy,

Miss Kim

oh, those little lies.

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I think lately I have been starting off the blog saying, “Wow, this was a busy week.”

Well, all those other times I was a liar, because the past 7 days have proved to be some of the busiest ever! (Well, err, I guess until next week probably lol.)

It was VBS week! I love VBS week. I have always said that if you could teach VBS everyday for your job, I would do it. In a heartbeat. I love seeing the kids learn the songs, play the games, eat the snacks(we have really good snacks!), and learn bible verses. The thing I love about VBS the most is watching the children experience God in a new and powerful way, and see some experience Him fore the first time. ( Wow! I really wish I could have expressed myself in that way when the newspaper lady asked me questions last Friday. I was ,however, in the middle of a “paper jam” crisis.)

I have been an intern during the past two VBS’s, which has made my VBS job go more behind the scenes. I spend the week decorating(and redecorating as things fall down.), counting, sorting, running around, answering calls, problem solving, and making copies on the copier I have a love/hate relationship with. I really love doing those things, and it is neat to see how everything works together from a different perspective. It is a great experience for an aspiring Children’s minister to have.

This year I got to sub in the missions class(my favorite!) for one day, and I have to say that was on of my favorite parts of the week. I am an extrovert. I get energy from being around people. Especially, when those people are kids that are really excited about learning about God.

The newspaper lady asked me why I think people continue to volunteer to work VBS  each year and I told her the reason why I continue to come back ( between my high school church, mission trips. and FBC I am on my 9th VBS this year. I also got baptized 9n years ago on Father’s Day. Random facts for you!) I come back every year because I Love God, I love His children, and I love seeing them experience Him.

This year was particularly busy. We had more kids, but less workers. I was interning, but I had do appointments at my other job a couple of the nights. It was VBS week, but only two weeks away from our Middle East trip. Lots of busy-ness. (As I type this, I am feeling a bit guilty because it is Sunday night and I still haven’t done my paperwork for the week at my other job. After this, I promise it’s getting done!:) )

This week, I also noticed an unwelcome friend coming out in me a lot. Pride. Yes, among all the other stuff, I was tempted (and gave in to) being prideful. Each time I got myself feeling prideful, I heard this song in my head singing, ” La-la-la-la, little lies.” It’s a Dave Barnes song. You know the guy who wrote “God Gave Me You.”

The song talks about how we say words we don’t mean and hurt others because we let the Enemy get in our heads and speak these little lies into our hearts. This is very personal for me, but I feel led to share the lies that I hear. I am also going to share the Scripture that is the Truth in those lies.

  • Lie 1: You aren’t good enough. This is when you hear the you aren’t smart enough, pretty enough, tough enough, organized enough, have enough friends, stylish enough whatever.
  • Truth 1: His grace is enough. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10  For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Cor 12:9-10
  • Lie 2: You aren’t worthy of love. When you see everyone else in relationships, getting married, having babies, falling in love. This even extends to when you don’t feel loved by one of your parents, siblings, family members, or even a friend.
  • Truth 2: He loves you SO much! Zep. 3:17,  Jeremiah 31:3, John 3:16, Romans 5:8 are just a few examples of how GREAT God’s love is for us. There are so many more!!
  • Lie 3: See how everyone else’s life is falling into place, looks like God forgot about you. This one hurts me more than I want to admit to. This is when you hear good news like someone has a new job, engagement ring, pregnancy announcement, special recognition, and you want to be happy for them, but get that nagging “When is it my turn?” feeling.
  • Truth 3: He has AMAZING plans for your life. Jeremiah 29:11, Romans 8:28, Proverbs 16:9, Proverbs 3:5-6
  • Lie 4: You messed up. You are a failure. You don’t deserve___. This is when you let past mistakes/failures dictate whether you will be used by God in the future. Sometimes we can believe we aren’t getting such and such because of our past failures.  We can get caught up in this and live a life of regret, sadness, and bitterness.
  • Truth 4: You are forgiven. God wants to give you beauty for those Ashes. If you believe in God and have accepted Jesus and trust Him as Lord and Savior. You are forgiven. God doesn’t remember that sin anymore.”IF we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” 1 John 1:9. He also plans to take all of those bad things, sorrow, and despair and turn it into beauty. “To all who mourn in Israel,[c  he will give a crown of beauty for ashes,
    a joyous blessing instead of mourning.   festive praise instead of despair.In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the Lord has planted for his own glory.” Isaiah 61:3
  • Lie 5: You need more than you have.You deserve to be the center of attention. This when you hear things like, you need more money for the job you are doing. You should buy this. You need this. You don’t need to wait on this, just do it now. Things like that. Lies the world has aided to this feeling in telling us that life should be all about us.
  • Truth 5: What Jesus did is MORE than enough for us.We should live like Him.  The only thing we deserve is to die and go to hell. We are all sinners. We fall short of and believing in Jesus Christ is our ONLY HOPE! Not anything of this whole world, but only Jesus! Need more proof. John 3:30,20:28, Luke 9:23-24. Phil. 2, and Isaiah 66:2.

There are more lies that I could prove as lies, but I feel these are enough to start with. Know that no matter who you are and what you’ve done that God loves you and wants to have a relationship with you. He is crazy about you and loves you so much that He sent his son to die for your sins.

There is no greater LOVE or truth than that.

Let’s stop believing the lies.

 

With Joy,

Miss Kim

Aside

Right in the middle of all of the summertime busy-ness, I had the honor of coordinating a sleepover for the 4-6th graders in our church this past Friday night.

I love working with kids, and love all of our girls, but I have to be honest, after the long week, and appointments all day Friday, I wasn’t the most excited person to be spending all night with a bunch of girls.

Thankfully, God came in and refocused me and I ended up having a BLAST.

We ate junk food, cooked with them, painted nails, danced(err…moved aerobically since we were at the church), played games, had a devotion, watched movies,and lots of other cool stuff.( I won’t post in case there are boys spying!)

I loved it all. I was so thankful to be a part of the experience and VERY thankful for all of the ladies that came, helped, and influenced each of the girls

I didn’t even really mind staying all night with the girls. I do feel like I should apologize to my mom for all the times my brother and I would stand over her and say ” No, you see if she’s awake. No you ask her.” I realized that you can hear it when people say that! Haha!:) I didn’t mind one bit. I even had energy the next day which surprised me.

My most favorite part happened about 1 am.

We gave each of the girls a slip of paper and let them ask any question they wanted to. They asked about clothes, God, friends, creation, and of course boys! It was neat to share my experiences and listen to the other women in the room share theirs.

It made me think back to when I was in middle school. I had people in my life that gave me advice and shared with me, but as I answered their questions, I thought, ” What do I know now that I wish I knew then?”

I thought I should write it down.

Dear Middle School Kim,

I know that somedays you feel on top of the world, and other days you feel invisible. I know that you walk the line on being smart but not too smart, being popular but still doing the right thing, and being the person you were made to be and the person you feel people want you to be.

I know you wonder if you will ever have straight hair, teeth, and be able to make the 10 lay-ups in a row. I know you wonder if your crush will ever know you exists. I know you wonder if you will ever feel comfortable in your own skin.

You hide your insecurities well. You are the life of the party(that won’t change), you make a lot of jokes, and you are the “nice” girl. You try to be the best at everything, so that no one will know you are lacking on the inside. You play basketball although you would rather being doing drama, and you go on track meets, so you can hang out with the boys. People envy you and I know you like that, but deep down inside, you envy those who get to be themselves. 

While you get to eat lunch with the cool kids, the ones you deeply connect with are the outsiders. You will get made fun of for being their friends, but it is worth it. 

You see, I know you. I know that you have always been a wide-eyed girl with big dreams. You want to cure cancer, become the President, and host the Today show. As you grow up, you will still be a big dreamer, and you will get to see some of those dreams come true. Keep the faith, kid. 

You will have a lot of friends come and go. I know right now it hurts a lot when they are mean , start rumors, leave you out, etc., but I promise in the future you will have some of the best friends in the world. They will walk beside you, stand up for you. pray for you, laugh/cry with you, and make your life so much better! Just you wait and see.

You will grow into those varied interests and start to be yourself. You will develop passions for writing, teaching, all things dramatic, planning, organizing, and communicating. All of these things will come together nicely. At the age of 26, you aren’t famous, but you have two jobs where you have amazing influence over children. You get to counsel and teach behavior skills, and you also get to serve God through Children’s ministry at your church. All of those crazy talents you have get put to good use everyday! I mean today you got to turn a church foyer into an airport terminal! How many people can do that?

I know you are dying to know, and I have to tell you, you didn’t marry your crush from age 12. You didn’t marry your first boyfriend from when you where 15. You didn’t marry any of the guys you liked in middle/high school, and that is okay. We have this thing called Facebook now and you keep tabs on them. They aren’t as wonderful as they seemed when you were slow dancing to Tim McGraw, or at the movies in the mall. (Bonus. Your mom doesn’t drive you on dates anymore!) You aren’t married at 26, and that is cool. You are holding out for God’s best. You have been in love before, and it didn’t work out, but you haven’t lost Hope. You have decided to stop putting yourself through so much heartache. You are still praying for God to bring that special person into your life.  You are just waiting on God. He is the main man in your life, and I will get to that later. 

Other random facts. You have your own apartment with an extra bedroom and two bathrooms! You have lots of clothes, makeup, and shoes, which you have always wanted.(you are very generous and practice the get something, give something away policy.) Sometimes you eat ice cream for dinner. You know how when you were 15 and the 2002 Ford Focus is really what you wanted to drive when you turned 16? Well guess what? You have had a 2002 Ford Focus for 3 years now! Go you! You hang out with friends a lot, and take lots of adventures. You like to jog, read, and watch reality tv in your spare time. Your momma is still one of your best friends. Your life is pretty awesome right now. You still hope for things like a husband and family(you really like babies), but you know that those things will happen in time. Until then, you are living it up.

I almost forgot. You do fall deeply in love. Like head over heels. My friend, when you were 17, you accepted Jesus and now you live your life for Him. I know in middle school, you did “Christian” things. Girl, you had a head belief, but it took a while to commit it to your heart. At 15, your family started going to church and you really started to since the Holy Spirit working in your life. You realized that you were spending your life making yourself famous and filling the empty spaces with stuff. You let God come in and change all that, and He has made your life SO GOOD! It was the most important thing you did and will ever do! Life with God is such an adventure. He has given you a heart for people, His children, and service. He loves you and fills all of those empty spaces in your heart. Boys have came and went in your life, but for the past 9 years you have had Him and it has been awesome. He is leading you on an awesome journey. I can’t wait until you meet him, 12 year old Kim! He has a plan for your life, has given you Hope, Joy, and unfailing Love. 

Middle school Kim, you have a great life ahead of you and you still believe the best has yet to come! Don’t worry so much. Don’t ever call a boy( you do once in the 9th grade, it is the most awkward thing ever!) Don’t cut your hair in 10th grade. You cry for weeks. Be yourself. Trust in the Lord. Listen to your momma,girl. She is a wise woman.

Love,

Miss Kim (yes, you go by Miss Kim.)

 

What would you tell yourself? What is something you can tell a special young lady or gentleman in your life this week?

Pray about that.

 

With Joy,

Miss Kim

 

 

A note to my middle school self.

trusting the unknown to the All-Knowing.

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Okay guys.

I have to be really honest with you. I love to give advice and get all excited when God places these great ideas in my heart to share, but I am horrible at taking my own advice.

I don’t know if that ever happens to anyone else, but for me, it is much easier to share advice than take it. 

I have really been struggling with this whole surrendering my plans to God and trusting He is painting that beautiful picture we talked about last week.

The truth is, I am not really certain about any of the things in my life right now. All of the “unknowns” in my equations are freaking me out a bit.

I know God is in control and he has a perfect plan. I know this. I am horrible at remembering what I know right now.

There are so many thoughts, ideas,and dreams floating around that is hard to remember. 

God knows this about me.

As I was with kids from Irving this weekend at Character Camp, he reminded me again in a beautiful way. 

As part of my being a character camp sponsor, I got to assist my 12 girls and 1 boy through the ropes course. This was a little different than going with adults like I was used to. They need a lot of encouragement to carry on.

As they looked at the big obstacles, I saw the fear and confusion enter their minds. I had to step it up and walk along side them as they journeyed into the great unknown. I cheered them on,even though it seemed like they would never get across without falling. At one point, I had to do a trust fall and let the kids catch me before they felt safe enough to jump. 

As I was doing these things alongside the kids, God reminded me that even though I may face an obstacle, I am not facing it alone. He is right there with me. He may not take the obstacle out of my way, but He will use it for His purpose. He may be able just to tell me the answer, but He knows that going alongside me and encouraging me is going to help me to understand and own it more. 

There were a lot of times I could have told the kids an easy way out, or not made them start over when they fell, but seeing their faces as they accomplished what was once impossible was more important than a shortcut. 

That’s the way it is with God. He could surely show us a shortcut, but He knows we learn the most about His character and ours when we are in the process. 

As the 13 kids looked at the wall that they would all have to climb with just the support of the team, they were scared to death. You know though, once we got one kid over the wall, they all believed it was possible. All 13 of them got over the wall! As the last kid made it, I had tears in my eyes. 

God knows we have obstacles, impossible odds, and challenges. He did not spare those even from His own Son. God knows there are things we want to shortcut. There are things that seem too tall or tough to climb. 

In my own life, there are shortcuts I want to happen. There are dreams I have that seem impossible. There are certainly challenges. 

I felt that on that course He was speaking into my heart saying, ” I am going to get you though and you better believe that what I have coming is amazing.”

Surrendering is a daily challenge for me. Being equipped with the Truth and knowing I can trust the unknown to the All Knowing was certainly a reminder I needed. 

I was listening to the radio this morning and heard this awesome NeedToBreathe song. The lyrics were so true. ( The whole song is awesome and you need to listen to it. It’s called Keep Your Eyes Open)

“Keep Your Eyes Open”

If you could soldier on
Headstrong into the storm
I’ll be here waiting on the other side
Don’t look back
The road is long
The first days of the war are gone
Take back your former throne and turn the tide

Cause if you never leave home, never let go
You’ll never make it to the great unknown till you
Keep your eyes open, my love
So tell me you’re strong, tell me you see
I need to hear it, can you promise me to
Keep your eyes open, my love

Just past the circumstance
The first light, a second chance
No child could ever dance the way you do, oh
Tear down the prison walls
Don’t start the curtain call
Your chains will never fall until you do

Cause if you never leave home, never let go
You’ll never make it to the great unknown till you
Keep your eyes open, my love
So show me your fire, show me your heart
You know I’ll never let you fall apart if you
Keep your eyes open, my love

Open up
Open up
Open up your eyes
The weight is unbroken
Open up
Open up
Open up your eyes
Keep your eyes open

Don’t let the night become the day
Don’t take the darkness to the grave
I know pain is just a place
The will has been broken
Don’t let the fear become the hate
Don’t take the sadness to the grave
I know the fight is on the way
When the sides have been chosen

Cause if you never leave home, never let go
You’ll never make it to the great unknown 
Open up your eyes
Keep your eyes open
So tell me you’re strong, tell me you see
I need to hear it, can you promise me to
Keep your eyes open, my love
So show me your fire, show me your heart
You know I’ll never let you fall apart if you
Keep your eyes open, my love

Keep your eyes (Keep your eyes open)

 
I love this song. Also, reading and mediating on Psalm 18 has really helped too. It’s a good one. Check it out!:)
 
My favorite part of the song is where it says, ” Show me your fire/Show me your heart/You know I’ll never let it fall apart/ Just keep your eyes open my love.”
 
In our lives we will have dreams, desires that ride along right beside challenges and struggles. God promises over and over again that if we trust Him with our Heart, He will hold onto it, even as the world tries to rip it apart.
 
Amen.
 
 
With Joy,
Miss Kim