Monthly Archives: March 2012

days like these.

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Some days it is sunny.

Some days you get to play kickball.

Some days you get to do each session at work outside.

Some days you get to eat Nachos at 9:30. 

Some days you get to celebrate.

Some days you get to dance around.

Some days you get to watch kids sing karaoke (one of the most precious things ever!)

Some days you get to sing along with them and impress them with your Bieber lyric knowledge.

Some days you get fountain Coke Zero. (the best.)

Some days you get to win with the kids who always seem to lose.

Some days you get to see that the trouble making kid has a heart of gold. 

Some days you get a note taped to your computer thanking you for your good advice that they decided to take.

Some days you get to celebrate a 7 year olds birthday with chocolate mini cupcakes.

Some days you get to eat pizza for lunch.

Some days you get to feel like one person can make a difference.

Some days you get to see prayers answered.

Some days you get to have great fellowship and study with other believers.

Some days the things you need at the store are on sale with a coupon.

Some days you get to hear the encouragement you need the most.

Some days all your jams come on the radio.

And on some days…God lines it up so all those things happen on the same day.

When this happens, enjoy it.

Days like these go by way too fast.

I am thankful for days like these. They bring refreshment to my heart and joy to my life. I needed a day like today, today.

Praying for you all. Praying that you can have a great day and get refreshment from your weariness. We all need days like these. 

Thank you Jesus. 

“Then, by the will of God, I will be able to come to you with a joyful heart, and we will be an encouragement to each other.” Romans 15:32 (NLT)

With Joy,

Miss Kim

 

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Aside

The other morning, I was talking to our janitor. We were mostly chatting about random things and then she started talking about our weather. She told me that she loved the fact it was spring.

Who doesn’t love spring? (Besides allergy sufferers?)

The flowers bloom. New life comes to relieve the cold winter of its dreary disposition. Days get longer. The sun shines brighter. Spring clothes are pretty. There is baseball, Easter, spring break, and snow cones.

I am a Fall kinda girl myself (mostly because I was born in the fall.), but I do love me some Spring. I think God was very clever with this new life coming in Spring, right around the time of Jesus’s death.

The janitor continued to talk about Spring and then she said, ” You know, I don’t like fall and winter because everything dies and it gets cold. Summer is way too hot. I wish it were just Spring all the time.”

I responded saying, ” If it were always Spring, then you really wouldn’t appreciate it. I mean the things have to die to bring new life. We would never see the new life, if it didn’t first die.”

Lightbulb reminder moment. I thought back to a conversation I had with someone a few months ago. They said that if God loves us and created us, why didn’t He just make us all believe in him to begin with. Why didn’t he make us love Him.

That day I remember telling that person a reason like, because you want people to love you because they want to, not out of obligation.

I reflected on both those conversations today, and found a connection.

Lots of people wonder why there is sin in the world, why we have to decide to love God, etc… They start to ask, “Why can’t we all just be born without sin and in love with God?” “Why can’t we always be living in Spring?”

Well, if you never had the winter of your life, the time before your relationship with Christ, you would never appreciate the new life He brings.

Simple correlation, I know, but I feel it is an important one to make.

We have to die to ourselves to experience the new life in Christ.

We have to have Winter to see Spring!

If we never had the “winter” in our life, we would not appreciate all the fullness “spring ” brings to our lives.

Just a little random rambling.

“This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!” – 2 Cor. 5:17

With Joy,

Miss Kim

winter/spring

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I have to be really honest about something that is not really that easy to be honest about.

I am letting stuff get to me, and it is eating away at the person I usually am.

I have been grumpy, short at times, overly emotional, dramatic,  inconsiderate, nonchalant, on edge, and a little anxious.

I don’t feel like myself.

I really like feeling like myself, so this isn’t a fun place to be.

Don’t get me wrong, I am still very happy and feel very blessed to live this life I live. I have a great family and wonderful friends. God has blessed me with a job I love, and allowed me to be a part of a ministry that I feel He is really using. I have everything a I need, and a lot of things I want. I truly have been given beyond measure, and that is humbling and awesome, all at the same time.

Something is still plaguing my heart though. I am not sure exactly what it is. I think it is a combination of having to wait on God’s timing, past hurts that are healing, new hurts that sting, fear, and the death of misplaced hope.

It’s hard for me to admit, but even into going into the 9th year of my journey with God, I still continue to place my hope in things that are not Him.

It always starts the same way. I am walking with the Lord and things are going great, and then something takes my focus away. This other thing is inviting, gives me a feeling of validation, brings me a rush. Things go great and I get a boost of confidence, self-esteem, and the world appear brighter. Before I know it, I have replaced my true eternal Hope in Jesus Christ, with a cheap imitation.

The other things or people( okay men, to be more specific) aren’t necessarily bad or sinful. They can even be good things that are a part of God’s plan. I put too much emphasis on the temporal and not enough on the eternal. Before you know it, I have let the cheap imitation hope take over. As with anything fake, we know what eventually will happen. It will fall apart.

Then, I am left with the pieces, frantically trying to make some resemblance of the hope I thought I had found.

I have to stop getting mad at the source of cheap imitation hope. It is a thing, an idea, a person. None of the above is God, so therefore it can and will fail, eventually. I don’t need to get mad, I just need to turn those things over to God. I mean, he is in control anyway,right? He is the Hope that doesn’t disappoint.

I know all this. I love God and I do believe he has a plan for my life. Yet, I still find myself ensnared in the trap of misplaced hope. It sneaks up on me. It draws me in. It is SO frustrating.

Lately the misplaced hope has been a combination of things. I have been waiting a long time on God to reveal some things that have yet to be revealed. I am processing through the pain of some broken relationships. I am facing the fear that I may never get to have a a family of my own, which is something that has always been at the top of my list ( and a really hard thing to admit.)  I am trying hard to trust God with all of these things. I know he is so very faithful. He has proven that so many times over the course of our relationship.

Doubts creep in though. Easy ways out come along. Cheap imitations start to cloud that view of trust.

I have to stop buying into those things and start reminding myself over and over that my only Hope is Jesus Christ. He is so faithful and has a plan. I am in the middle of the wilderness, and He can see the other side. He knows it all works out. I just gotta trust.

It is sometimes hard for me to share things that are very personal, but I feel in this case, I needed to do it. Maybe you have been through something similar and are now on the other side. I would love to hear about your journey. Maybe you are in the middle like me, wondering how it is all going to work out. Maybe you have never experienced this only Hope I am talking about.

Whatever your situation, I am praying for you and myself. It’s time we kill this misplaced hope once and for all, and put all our hoping in the only Hope.

God is not man, that he should lie, or a son of man, that he should change his mind. Has he said, and will he not do it? Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it?” Numbers 23:19

“Let your steadfast love, O LORD, be upon us, even as we hope in you.” Psalm 33:22

With Joy,

Miss Kim

only Hope.

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When last we left, I was in the middle of Spring Break. The last half friends, was much more whirlwind than the first!

Thursday:  I went on a shopping trek to OKC  with my friend Amelia. We left at 11:00 AM and returned at 1:30 AM. It was a marathon. That is the way we roll, though. We stopped on the way  to see another friend, Hallie, in Shawnee. We saw her house and ate at a bakery that had the best salad bar ever. It had every topping you  can imagine. We then went to the outlet mall, Daisy Exchange, (which is a fancy Plato’s closet), Ross, Old Navy, and the mall. We didn’t even stop to eat dinner until 9, when all the stores closed. We then went to my favorite, Cheesecake Factory! It was a long and very fun day.

Friday: Had lunch with my mom and went to put our names in the Vera Bradley drawing at Meigs. I am pretty sure I didn’t win again. We looked around downtown for a while. I then went home to get ready for the Ben Rector/NeedToBreathe concert! I met up with my friend from work and people from her church. It was so fun! We ate at Cheddar’s and had lots of laughs along the way. Ben Rector was amazing! If you have never listened to him, you should. My favorite are “The Beat,” “White Dress,” and “Lovin’ you is Easy.”  NeedToBreathe puts on one of the BEST live shows I have ever seen. They are such great and talented musicians. If you don’t know them, you need to.  My favorite songs that aren’t the popular ones are ” The Outsiders,” “Restless,”  and ” Girl from Tennessee.” Listen to the songs, you won’t be disappointed! We got home about 2:00. Another late night, but way worth it!

Saturday: Mom and I went to Crystal Bridges. It is a new Museum found by mostly Alice Walton. It has beautiful architecture, lots of different styles of art inside. Outside, there were trails, plants, flowers, waterfront, and sculpturies. It was an absolutely amazing place. The best part, it was FREE. I would have paid to go to it, but it was completely free. I saw so many different types of people and families there. It is so neat to have something that nice for all types of people to enjoy. It isn’t too far either, right next door in Bentonville, AR. Most certainly worth the drive to see. I want to go back already! After that, we went to Lifeway and a few other stores, then finished off the night at Olive Garden. I got home at a much more reasonable 10:30!

Sunday: Church, lunch with Sarah (and lots of catching up on her Mission trip.), 2 hour nap, and cleaning. My roommate and I went and had dinner, and then where going to get gelato for us and the Coppedge’s, but they were closed. Lame. Instead, we brought over Braums and had a good time talking with them.

It was a little strange not being on a trip this Spring Break, but it was much needed. I spent quality time with people, had some adventures, rested, and obviously ate at a lot of different places(lol!)

I had a simple moment yesterday. As we were walking around Crystal Bridges, I was so amazed that it was a free gift. God reminded me softly that it is not as amazing as His free gift of salvation. That is by far the MOST amazing gift. I am humbled everyday that I have this amazing Love that I don’t deserve. It is the best free gift, and I should know. I am a sucker for free gifts with purchase. I hope and pray that I always live with the same passion for God’s free gifts as I do for the free gifts life gives.

Tomorrow is Monday! I am super excited to see my kids again. I do love breaks from school, but I love my job. I am ready to get up at 6:15, start my new ” Brave,” by Angela Thomas study, and get back in the routine.

By 4:30 tomorrow,I may be singing a different tune,though. Don’t judge me.

We read this verse at church this morning. It is a favorite of mine and my goal for the week. I want to strive to produce this fruit, so that others my know Him.

” But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.” Galatians 5:22-23

With Joy ( and hopefully love, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control),

Miss Kim

end of week spring break update.

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Well, it’s Spring Break and my mind is fresh out of insight. I have been in an “insight funk” the past few days. Feeling a little bit off my game. I am hoping to get back up to 100 percent by the end of the week.:)

I would do a little recap of Spring Break, so far. This break is vastly different from the past 5 or so Spring Breaks, where I have done missions. It is a welcome break.

Friday: I know I was at work this day, but it was a pretty cool day  I need to recap. First off, it was group picture day! I was in the staff picture, made me feel very included. I went to pick up a book in the book fair and found out I was given 25.00 to spend on resources as such. I bought more than the one book I had intended on. I was able to play Whiffleball with some 4th graders, and it was movie Buy-out day. We had a mission trip meeting, and I got to visit with my friend Laura who was home for the weekend.

Saturday: I managed to sleep in a little bit, did some cleaning, and working out. I went to Pryor to meet up with Autumn, Bryce’s sister, and my friend Elizabeth for a bridesmaid dress fitting. After the fitting, Bryce’s sister had to go, but Autumn, Biz, and I had dinner, watched a movie, and caught up on everything. It was a great day.

Sunday: Early service about building relationships. Sunday school. Taught some of our bus ministry kids during the late service. Lunch with my 2nd family. 2 1/2 hour nap, followed by a 2 hour Beth Moore study. Evening service and dinner with some friends from church.

Monday: Tried to sleep in. Went up to the church. A neighboring church’s mission projects had been rained out and they came to help us. Reminded me of being on a mission trip, which I really liked. Helped the girls with some stuff, made some letters, worked on other stuff. Spent the night watching TV, working on work paperwork, and with my friend, Jillian Michaels(and her 30 day shred)

Tuesday: Slept til 10:00! That never happens. Went back to the church and helped with the mission team again. Got the extended session schedule finished(with no changes I hope:)) and went to dinner with my friend, Deanne. She helped me clean out my car and we had great fun as usual. Came home and caught up with my rooms who just got back from Vegas ( ah, the glamorous life.).

Wednesday: Got up early to meet my mom and help her take my Grandma to the doctor in Tulsa. They ran some tests on her back and decided she will need surgery. Grandma decided that was fine with her, she just ready to get rid of the pain. We had lunch at Cracker Barrel (what Spring break trip is complete without it!), got her prescription, got it filled, and got her home.  I met my friend Lauren to go watch The Lorax. It was such a cute movie. I plan on ending my Wednesday with dinner, paperwork, maybe working out, and getting caught up on Big Bang Theory ( I heart Sheldon Cooper.) It is super weird to not be busy on a Wednesday night.

Well, there you have it. The not so exciting, but much needed Spring Break, so far.

Stay tuned, the latter part of this week hold many exciting things. Tomorrow it’s shopping with Amelia. Friday, it is seeing NeedtoBreathe and Ben Rector in concert. Saturday holds the possibility of a trip to Crystal Bridges (the new museum the Walton’s created in NWA).

The truth is that even though all last week I couldn’t wait for a break, I am super excited to see my kids again! They bring so much joy and laughter into the everyday-ness of life.

I am thankful for this break and for the opportunities God continues to give me everyday.

I am thankful for time to rest in Him.

“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” Matthew 11:28-30

With Joy,

Miss Kim

mid-week, spring break, update

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So, I have been thinking. We celebrate a lot of random holidays in March. There is Pi Day, St. Patrick’s Day, the Ides of March,  Middle Name Pride Day, and Girl Scout Day, just to name a few.

I am “dates” person. I remember birthdays, anniversaries, special occasions easily. Its a weird talent, I guess. Often when the date relates to a bible verse I like, I make a connection with the date.

Tomorrow is 3/16/2012. I was thinking today at work, there should be a 3:16 day on 3/16! I googled it and know I am not the first person to think this up.

I decided though, it is something worth celebrating.

Every time I see 3/16, I think of the verse that shows us all what true Love really is.  The verse that changed so many of our lives for the better.

“For God so loved the world,that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” John 3:16 (ESV)

On a summer day in 2003, this verse became real to me as I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. This verse set in motion the course of my life. I don’t know where I would be without the sacrifice Jesus made for me on the cross. If you would like to see my testimony, click on the link below.

My Testimony (type in Kim Eubanks)

God has given me so much. A life. A hope. A future. Joy.

I know many of you also have awesome testimonies of what God has done for you.

I also know many of you have friends, loved ones, co-workers, and acquaintances that do not know this Love. They don’t know there is any Hope.

Friends, we need to tell them.

What better day than 3/16?

I am going to commit to praying for opportunities to encounter people tomorrow who need Jesus. I am also going to pray at 3:16 for all of the people who are lost and seeking after a Savior. I am going to share the testimony of Jesus Christ in my life at least once.

Christians, will you join me in winning a lost and dying world for Jesus? Will you commit to pray? Will you share your story?

We have a world out there just looking for love.

Let’s show them True Love.

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Well, it’s week 3 of Wednesday prayer walking.

Actually, it is a prayer drive by followed by some prayer in the parking lot, followed by prayer walking in the hallways.

Lemme tell you. The prayer drive by has proved to be very helpful. Our school is a neighborhood school, so I have spent some time driving all the streets. God shows me so much through that time. I see where these kids live, and the world right outside their door. I see so much more I feel by following the footsteps they take to get from the door to the desk.  Let’s face it. I work in Muskogee. Drive-by praying goes with the culture.

God has been teaching me a lot lately, and I feel like the prayer walking thing came at a very good time in that learning process.

I set out to change the hearts of the people in the school, and  as usual, it is my heart that is being molded as I further my obedience to God’s call.

I have no big stories or major revelations today, just random observations of my 3 weeks of prayer walking.

The Observations:

  • I have always liked to pray,( I mean hello, you get to talk to God) praying for these kids and our school has become a great joy of mine.
  • The more I pray, the more God reveals that I need to pray for.
  • God is most certainly at work in the world . Everyday. All the time.
  • Even if you never say a word to someone, your actions (good or bad) can tell them everything they want to know about Jesus.
  • When you are prayed up, challenges usually follow. I see these as “gut-checks” to make sure your walk and talk match up.
  • Sometimes, no matter how much you pray, some news is just plain heartbreaking.
  • People will disappoint.
  • Each time I feel all prayed up, 5 seconds later the testy teacher comes up to me and I feel I need to repent.
  • Never expect to much or too little out of people. People rise up. People fail. God never fails. Expect things from him.
Each week I read a passage of Scripture over the school, as a battle cry of sorts. This week it was Psalms 143

“LORD, hear my prayer,
listen to my cry for mercy;
in your faithfulness and righteousness
come to my relief.
2 Do not bring your servant into judgment,
for no one living is righteous before you.
3 The enemy pursues me,
he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in the darkness
like those long dead.
4 So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed.
5 I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.
6 I spread out my hands to you;
I thirst for you like a parched land.[a]

7 Answer me quickly, LORD;
my spirit fails.
Do not hide your face from me
or I will be like those who go down to the pit.
8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
for to you I entrust my life.
9 Rescue me from my enemies, LORD,
for I hide myself in you.
10 Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God;
may your good Spirit
lead me on level ground.

11 For your name’s sake, LORD, preserve my life;
in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble.
12 In your unfailing love, silence my enemies;
destroy all my foes,
for I am your servant.”

Let’s win this world for God and defeat our enemies! Join me in that prayer!

With Joy,

Miss Kim

drive-by prayer